欣情小故事之霓彩世界

New job, new begining

2008-01-31T22:35:00.000+08:00

Its has been a long long time since i last blogged. Guess no one is visiting my blog anymore. Well, it doesn't really matter le. Afterall, after my this post, who knows when i will blog again?
Yesterday was my last day at work. I joined Marvell Asia in 3 Oct 2005 and left in 30 Oct 2008. Time really flies, it has been more den 2 yrs since i graduated and I will be turning 23 yrs old this yr. Marvell was my first job after graduation. I gonna miss the environment, the people(especially those in my dept) , the cubicles(which other companies give their employees each an individual cubicles that is so tall? ) and the free 3 meals i get there. It has been a relaxing 2 yrs(despite the long hrs of ot), i enjoy a gd relationship with my colleagues and i can handle my job scope well. So why do i want to leave? Well, its getting too comfortable, i'm falling into a comfort zone. If i dun pull myself out now, its gotta be harder to leave later. Am i been stupid? My frens and colleagues feels that its gd for me to try new stuff while my family tinks i'm been stupid? Actually, i also know its gd to try a new job, to learn new stuff. But i jus can't help feeling unsure, what if i dun like my new job, my new colleagues hates me, i keep on making mistakes? Yes, i know i'm most lackin in confidence.
Gotta start on my new job tml, its gonna be completely diff frm my previous job. Hope i can handle it well. A new yr, a new begining. All the best to myself.

Thailand

2006-12-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

Oh, finally i can access my blog. Have been trying since yesterday to no avail. I cannot sign into msn and access other website as well in my office, sian. haha. Its has been raining non stop these few days causing me to reach office later and later everyday cos i can't wake up, haha. This kind of weather is troublesome, although i like the coolness of it but rain the whole day can cause a lot of inconveniences.

Some thoughts on my thailand trip last week, well, i like the weather there. Before i went there, i hear a lot of pple telling me how hot it is over there, but unexpectedly when i finally reached there, it wasn't hot at all? At least it was very cooling in the morning and at night.The people there are quite friendly and i have a great time shopping. The food there are yummy too, i can still taste the tom yum soup and mango rice on my taste buds,yum. Only thing that spoils the whole trip was the fact that i din buy much clothes during my trip there, cos my initial aim was to get a whole new wardrobe, hahaha. But the clothes sizes there are really small, 1 look and i noe for sure i can't fit in. Sad arh. So in the end, the only clothes i bought are T shirts. Wonder when i will have the chance to go overseas with my friends, cos i alway went with my family, wanna try gg with firnds. Tink it should be fun too.

Feeling very tired these few days, probably been watching too much tv at night, haha. Jus finished watching a jap drama ‘the cheater' by 山下智久 yesterday. Nice show, tink that 山下智久 will be a better candidate to act as Light in Death Note. Maybe Japan will shoot a tv version of the manga someday and they will look for him to act as Light? Well, i can always hope. I feel that myy life is boring, maybe i can consider taking up some courses or wat? hmm, will tink abt it.Anyway, Belated Merry Christmas and advanced Happy New Year to all! hohoho

Lately

2006-12-09T22:58:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the much anticipated event of the year for my company, its our D&D! The theme for yesterday D&D was Arabian nite, haha, but from what i saw last nite, it seems that not many really followed the theme. Wow, saw a lot of mei nu yesterday, gosh, the colleagues i face everyday look so different yesterday. all are so pretty. I myself for the 1st time in my life wore a low v necked top with a black skirt. I though i looked quite nice but after seein the many mei nu last nite, i guess i shld work harder to try to lose weight. Ayone got any tips to share?The RC did quite a good job this yr, can really see the time and efforts they put in trying to make this event a big success, i quite enjoyed the performances last nite. The ah gua and fire show went down well with the audience.
One thing that spoils the whole evening was that I DIN WIN ANY PRIZES IN THE LUCKY DRAW!!!AAAAARRRRGGGGHHHH. Cos from wat i know, the RC prepared 150 prizes and abt 180 employees attended the event, therefore only abt 30 pple will not win any prizes. And guess wat, i'm among the unlucky 30. Last yr,cos i'm a contract staff, i cannot take part in the lucky draw, now after a long 1 yr wait, i did not even get a measly $40 ntuc voucher. Makes me wonder wat is it i did wrong,seems like i have been pretty down on my luck lately.
Oh ya, i will be gg to Bangkok on 20 Dec with my uncle family. This will my 2nd time leaving on a trip to go somewhere farther den malaysia. Pretty looking forward to it. I really need to tie my pocket strings tight, figure i gonna spend ard $600 to $800( flight and shopping expense) on my trip, my finances are really getting very tight. 1 gd thing on gg aboard with my family is that i dun have to worry abt hotel and food expenses. haha. Gonna haul loads of durian chips back. Food are my biggest leisure and worry. Wonder how much weigh i will gain for my 5 days there. Will be back on x'mas eve. Gonna miss my family and frens. U all must rem to miss me too,k? haa

唱歌

2006-11-05T14:22:00.000+08:00

唱歌

认识我的朋友们应该知道我很喜欢唱歌，时不时就会要他们陪我到KTV高歌一曲。哈哈哈，不知道是从什么时候开始，一听到熟悉的音乐就会忍不住跟着哼哼唱唱，也因为我的这个怪癖，常常会惹来陌生人的异样眼光。他们应该是在想我是不是疯了，怎么一个人在唱歌呢？
我喜欢沈醉在自己的小小世界里，戴上我的耳机，听着不同的声音述说着不同的故事和心情，感受着他们的喜怒哀乐。也许是因为自己的现实生活过于乏味，所以特别喜欢在虚拟的世界里沉溺。难怪除了听歌，唱歌，我也喜欢看故事书和看电视剧。
唱歌是我的嗜好，是我发泄的管道和减压的方法。但是我知道，虽然我爱唱，却因为声线的限制和本身歌唱功力上的不足，常常让好心陪我一起唱歌的朋友们受苦了。哈哈，就让我在这里向你们道歉吧，让你们的耳朵受罪了，真是不好意思。可是话虽如此，别以为你们就此脱离了我的魔音传脑，我还是会常常找你们来陪我唱歌的，要有心理准备喔，哈哈哈。Anyone who wanna go sing, can also look for me too. 我随时奉陪。

Quarter end

2006-10-29T13:55:00.000+08:00

FInally, quarter end is over!!!I can finally take a break. Hahaha. Guess how i spend my sat yesterday?Yes, I spend it working at my company yesterday frm 10.30am to 10.30pm and the thing that I feel very irritated with is that i could have finished earlier and went off but becos of a customer who jus can't make up their mind, we have to stay and do extra work just to comply with their many unreasonable requirements. This is one of my worst ever quarter. Well, since it is already over, no point harping on it. Haha, at least now i can finslly take a breather and not have to stay till 8 plus 9pm everyday at the office. But 3 months later, the same thing will jus begin all over again. sian.
1 gd thing that happened during the week. I finally got my digicam,and its free!!! Hahaha, u noe why its free?Cos its a gift from my company to all staff as a token of appreciation for hitting a certain amount of revenue. Yea, i dunnid to spend $ to buy a digicam myself le.Last yr, i received a psp and this yr i got a Nikon S7C, both the products contains our company chips, wonder what we will recive next? I want a handphone or portable dvd player,hahaha.

Hazy Hazy

2006-10-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

1.30am le, so tired. Wah, the haze these 2 days have been really bad. Imagine my surprise yesterday night when i stepped out of my office to see the entire carpark covered with haze, there was even a faint burning smell in the air,it was so bad that I thought there was a fire nearby. The haze is really harmful to health cos i started coughing yesterday after i came out in the open. Luckily i was ok today le, hehe. Saw in the news that the pollution level has readhed a dangerous high. People are dicouraged to go outdoors or do rigorous outdoor activities. Thats really bad, even if me who can be considered quite healthy can be affected by it, there must be even more out there, chidren or elderlys who are even more badly affected. In my opinion, there are nothing more important then health, without a healthy body, you can't do anything. haha, y do i seem to be preaching??? Guess I am getting a bit high cos hardly stay online till so late ever since i start working. Yawn' guess its time for me to catch my beauty sleep now le,nitezzzz

Happy 21st Birthday to Juwie

2006-09-17T01:58:00.000+08:00

Happy 21st Birthday to Juwie!!!

Wow, seem like some time(actually only 2 weeks la, haha) since i have last written. First of all, i would like to wish my dear friend Juwita a big HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY. Yes, its her 21st birthday today!!! So Juwie, if u are reading this, jus wanna say Happy Birthday! Hope u like the present I have given u.
Well,my life this 2 weeks has been the same old boring stuff so shall not bore u all the details den. Had a difficult decision to make during this week and i sure hope that I will not regret my decision later.This yr seems to pass so quickly,the days are passing me by and I feel that everyday is spent in vain(what i mean is that looking back, i seems to have done nothing worth remembering). I wanna do somethin meaningful, something that can make me feel happy(not that I am unhappy or what, it jus seems that something is missing). Still pondering...

21岁生日快乐

2006-09-03T11:31:00.000+08:00

21岁生日快乐

Time really flies. Haha,I'm 21 le. Had a most memorable birthday yesterday with a few of my gd frens. Thanks Huamin, Zhijia , Mansze, Jacinta and Meiyu for taking time out to spend the day with me yesterday, especially Zhijia, I feel bad that u had to forgo ur Genting trip jus to stay here to celebrate my birthday with us. Hey,Sorry har. The presents were great,the cards were really sweet and the cake was delicious, hope that you all din spend a lot of $ on me. But what touched me the most yesterday was not the presents or things i received, it was the friendship i felt between us, all along, i have felt that I was sort of a loner, i nvr had many frens.Maybe it was because i do not know how to communicate with people? Or it was because I was jus too introverted? Hahaha, but yesterday i really felt glad, i may not have many frens but I know that I do have frens who really care for me and they will there for me when I need them. 我想我是幸福的。我拥有爱我的家人，真心待我的朋友，人生无法尽如人意，但拥有这两样最重要的东西，我想我可以坚持下去。

小孩的笑

2006-08-20T01:03:00.000+08:00

小孩的笑

刚才自己一个人跑到Hougang Mall和Heartland Mall乱逛。看着街上的人来人往，突然有一种很奇怪的感觉，似乎我并不属于这里，不知道你们有没有过这种感觉？即使你的身边有很多的人，但是却没有办法融入他们，我就像是一个旁观者般，冷漠的看着身边的人事物。一路上看到很多的年轻人成群结队的一起出外游玩, 好羡慕他们啊，他们身上挥洒着青春的气息，曾几何时我也和他们一样有用不完的精力，但现在我的热情还在吗？怎么每一天都觉得这样累，周末也提不起精神出门。刚才也看到了一位很可爱的小朋友，他对着我笑，我也对着他笑了笑。他的笑容真的很美，这样的天真无邪, ，我想我现在的笑容应该没有这样的单纯了吧，年纪越大，压力越重，生活的历炼多了，笑容也就变了，笑并不是只因为觉得快乐, 勉强的笑，虚伪的笑，无奈的笑。笑容变了质，有谁的笑容是真正发自内心开心的笑？因此我觉得小孩的笑是最珍贵的，因为他们的笑可以让我感觉到他们的快乐。

匆匆令

2006-08-19T15:26:00.000+08:00

匆匆令

来也匆匆
去也匆匆
曾经的一切
只留在回忆中
今天将成为过去
明天还在等待
千言万语
无从说起
仅化为真心的一句
请珍重！

The above is just sumthing i've written on a colleague whiteboard who has jus left the company yesterday. I know it is a very lousy poem???( is it even a poem?) but decided to jus put it down here in my blog as a remembrance. Has been feeling a bit confused these few days but I think i have made my decision. Maybe i will regret it in future, maybe it is not the right time now, maybe it will be better the other way, maybe ,maybe, but at least i know that this is wat i want to do now, even if i really do regret in future, well,i know i have tried and its my own decision, i will face the consequences on my own.

Lasik???

2006-08-08T19:07:00.000+08:00

With a degree of over a thousand per eye, I was hoping to go for my lasik operation this yr, therefore I have been trying to save up as much as possible in order to go for the op. But ytd, my uncle advised me to go for the op in another 1 or 2 yrs when the technology will be even better and the price cheaper. Since young, i have the hobby of reading and doing my homework in the school bus and so resulting in the poor eyesight i have now. Without my glasses, i'm blind as a bat.When i learnt of lasik, it has been my wish to go for it and correct my eyesight once and for all. But after hearing my uncle resonations ytd, i'm starting to have second thoughts, maybe he's right, maybe its too early for me to do it now?Friends, wat do u all tink?

我的一年

2006-08-02T08:12:00.000+08:00

我的一年

曾经有人说如果你觉得时间过得很快的话，这就代表你在这段日子里过得还算愉快。但我却持有不同的看法。一年了，自从毕业到现在已经一年了，如果你问我这一年我过得好吗？我只能说我不知道？我不知道我过得算是好还是不好，至少我是衣食无忧的，但是我快乐吗？我觉得很困惑，我并不是不快乐但也不能说我快乐。我想我是渐渐麻木了吧，似乎没有什么事情能够让我的心情大起大落。我的生活已经陷入了一种既定的模式，每天重复的过着一样的日子，做着同样的事情，每一天都过得很快，快得让我害怕，一眨眼一年就过了。不知不觉地，时间就这样悄悄地从我身边溜走了。我不是怕时间的流逝，我是不希望我的青春就这样沉沦在日复一日，年复一年的旋涡里。少了热情，没有了推动力，生活也就少了意义。难道这就是我以后的人生？我不要

喜欢讨厌

2006-07-19T12:21:00.000+08:00

喜欢讨厌

喜欢一个人时的自由
喜欢和朋友在一起时的欢乐
喜欢完成一件艰难的任务后的满足感
喜欢被捧在手心里疼爱的感觉
喜欢乐观开朗的自己
喜欢对别人彬彬有礼的自己

讨厌一个人时的寂寞
讨厌曲终人散时的失落
讨厌做错事时的挫败感
讨厌被束缚的无助
讨厌失魂落魄，无精打采的自己
讨厌对家人无礼的自己

人总是这样矛盾的吗？喜欢与讨厌似乎离不开彼此。可能因为他们是相辅相衬的吧，因此我们才懂得什么是喜欢，什么是讨厌。

Friday nights

2006-07-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

Surprise, surprise...Its friday nite again or (should i say Sat morning) and i am still stuck in the office. The late hours spend is really taking a toil on me, i can hardly keep my eyelids open and my eyes hurt from staring at the comp screen for almost 16 hrs straight. Oh great, and i still can't go home yet due to pending issues. This is the third fri in a row( i stayed till 1am on the fri 2weeks ago)where i stayed past midnghts. My dark circles are so horrible tat i can't even hide them with my glasses anymore.And The workload is is jus gonna get heavier as time goes by. I can jus see my life passing me by...

Dreams

2006-07-14T12:57:00.000+08:00

Dreams

What is your dream? What is my dream? This has been the question that i have been asking myself lately, and i have not found the answer yet. Pathetic, isn't it. I have no dreams, try as i can, i jus can't figure out what is it that i really wan? I used to have a dream, but that little dream of mine has long since disappeared in the face of reality. Dreams & reality, how many pple can really realise their dreams in this harsh reality. Maybe its time for me to wake up and move on, afterall reality is a fact while dreams are well jus dreams..

快乐

2006-07-12T08:58:00.000+08:00

快乐

今天早上起来时，天空正在下着雨，懒懒的心情搭配懒懒的天气，多希望可以再睡一下下啊。昨天在工作上犯了一个错误，让我一整天都觉得闷闷的。不知道我这几天是怎么了，似乎魂不守舍的，有如一副空的躯壳正在进行着我每一天的例行活动，但是却没有了灵魂。也许是心已经不在了吧？生活过得无趣，人也变得无精打采的，我唯有尽力的在小细节中寻找属于我自己的快乐，例如吃一些我喜欢的食物，听一首我喜欢的歌，看一部精彩的电视剧或是做一件善事，心情就会好一点。好希望我可以早一点走出我这一个小小的的阴霾，每一天都能活出精彩。

我和蚊子的对话

2006-07-10T12:14:00.000+08:00

我和蚊子的对话

我：大胆狂徒，竟敢在夜里潜进我家，在我的身上留下如此触目惊心的伤痕。此仇不报，非君子！纳命来！
蚊子：就算你现在把我杀了，你别了忘外面我还有千千万万的兄弟，他们一定会替我报仇！
我：你们这些害人精，不把你们杀了，难泄我心头之恨。
蚊子：我们那里错了？我们只是很努力的在这个弱肉强食的世界里苟且偷生。你以为我们喜欢这样的生活啊？每天过得提心吊胆的，随时都有生命的危险，但是我们不吸你们的血，我们就会饿死的，反正你们的血这么多，施舍我们一点也没什么吗。
我：强词夺理，你害得我们身上布满难看的包, 让我们奇痒无比，最后这些伤痕会成为我们难以磨灭的疤。你们的表哥伊蚊还会害我们染上骨痛益血热症，如果严重的话，会一命呜呼的啊！哼，我干吗和你解释这么多，看招！
蚊子：啊啊。。。。。。。。。

End of Story

Just something I have written after I woke up this morning with mosquito’s bites all over my body. I know it is very bo liao, but well, I am a boliao person. Haa

聆听者

2006-07-09T18:14:00.000+08:00

聆听者

每一次看到我的朋友伤心难过的时候，我总是觉得很无能为力，因为我不知道应该说些什么或作些什么安慰他们，我唯一能做的唯有当一个安静的聆听者。

我不喜欢将我的伤心与难过告诉别人，因为我不希望因为我的事而影响了他们的情绪.我总觉得自己的问题我自己可以解决,也许处女座的女生就是喜欢压抑自己的情绪吧？我喜欢让别人看到我开心阳光的一面，因为我们的情绪是可以传染的。当你开心的时候，你身边的人也会觉得开心，同样的,你难过的话，你身边的人也会跟着受影响，我喜欢看到大家都开开心心的，难道不对吗？

可能我并不了解我朋友心中的痛苦，但是我希望他们知道就算我帮不了他们，也无法减轻他们的伤痛，但我绝对会是一个最佳的聆听者。

Working life VS Studying life

2006-07-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

Haiz, its almost midnight now and guess where i am? I am still WORKING in the OFFICE!!! From 8am i work till 12 midnite for a meagrely pay( ya, i do get ot pay) but why do i have to work so hard and till so late jus for a few extra bucks and especially on fri summore, when everyone is out partying, i am slogging away in the office. Ever since i started working, life has been so super duper boring, i pratically have no life at all, everyday i work from 8am to 8pm, and on fri till 10pm-12midnight. I have no time to go out wif my friends, no time to spend with my family. I really miss studying life, doing projects and discussing assignments with my friends...I nvr felt so sian with my life b4...

Up and running

2006-07-07T13:56:00.000+08:00

Finally, this blog of mine is up and running. Actually, i wanted to create my own blogskin but realise that i really could not find time to do it,so guess everyone will have to bear with this skin for the time being while i try to come up with a new one asap(which might quite some time in the future, haha). U might realise that there is quite a number of chinese wordings on my blog, hope u all won't mind, cos i feel that sometimes i can express myself better in chinese then eng. Anyway,i will try to update my blog as often as possible( which might be not so often also, haha), you can leave me your comments at the tagboard. Thanks!

First blog of mine

2006-07-02T15:42:00.000+08:00

This will be the first time i am writing a blog, did not want to start 1 earlier cos too lazy plus i was pretty sure i will not update it often. Haha, s0 wat changed my mind? Well, I finally got broadband!!!Haha, so guess i will be gg online more often now?den will most prob update it often? Well, enuff of this rubbish, welcum to browse this blog of mine and feel free to give me any comments. Have a nice day!